have i said that i so suck at confrontations? give me a moment to assess my feelings and i'll give you a more decent answer. i rattle immediately. i utter senseless statements when you look at me in the eye and demand an answer right away. my heart and my mind are so far apart that they do not coordinate if not given any notice.
anyway, i was asked by the jerk if i like him or not because he really seemed to like me. what have i replied? incoherent statements! if we were in court, i'd be getting a lifetime before my third sentence. he was so pissed off at my illogical train of thought that we warned each other countless of times to stop seeing for good.
but maybe one of us liked each other that much that i wasn't allowed to leave until we mutually agreed that i'd go home. nothing much was solved but we never burned bridges.
while i was walking home, i realized that this will be the first time that i feel actual self-disappointment. i haven't been honest even to myself. and the worst part? i don't think i will be anytime soon.
i think im going to hate 2008.
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