Friday, May 27, 2011
Buti na lang _____, at _______ (part 1)
1) Buti na lang at hinigpitan ako ng nanay ko nung tinedyer ako, at nakapagconcentrate ako sa college. Alam mo tama lang un, kase at some point in your life magwawala ka din, mapapariwara. Pero di ba mas masarap ung magwala ka ng may pera ka? Ang corny naman na nagkasya ka lang sa gin bulag tapos un na un. Mas masarap ang uminom ng gin bulag pero sa Boracay, or sa Maldives! Imagine kung pinatulan ko ung mga may crush saken dati or ung mga crush ko, ilan na anak ko ngayon? Lumaki akong galit sa nanay ko, pero ngayon nagpapasalamat talaga ko sa kanya. Ung mga gabing umiiyak ako kase ayaw nya kong payagan magdisco, naiintindihan ko na sya. Ngayon kahit gabi gabi akong magdisco… paaak!!
2) Buti na lang nagkaroon ng crappy production nung high school, at nakahiram ako ng malong kay E at may bestfriend ako ngayon. Promise sya lang ung kumausap saken nung second year high school kame. Ewan, may pagka-siga or pagka-bully ang aura ko nun tapos galing pa ko sa notorious section nung freshman year. Pero sya talaga mabait tapos di madamot.
3) Buti na lang at di ko pinakinggan ang sabi sabi ng mga tao na mag-accounting ako sa college, at nag EL ako at masaya ako sa ginagawa ko. Gusto ko ng numbers pero for some reason, may munting tinig na nagsasabing EL ang kunin kong course. At walang pagsisisi. Siguro mas malaki ang sweldo ko ngayon , siguro hindi. Pero un nga, kung hindi ako nag-EL di ko makikilala ang 3 college superfriends ko. At di ako makakarating sa Spain, Mexico, Chile ng libre! EL I love you!
4) Buti na lang kinalimutan ko ang notion na delikado makipagkita sa complete strangers na nakakausap sa internet, at nakilala ko si L at pinakilala nya ko kay DJ at tuloy tuloy na ang grupo namin. Five years hence ang dami na namin. Fan ako ng small groups pero I like our group now kahit super laki. Mas marami, mas masaya. Sa ngayon 20 na kame. Pwede na kameng isang buong kumpletong klase. O di ba? Ang saya saya!
2) Buti na lang nagkaroon ng crappy production nung high school, at nakahiram ako ng malong kay E at may bestfriend ako ngayon. Promise sya lang ung kumausap saken nung second year high school kame. Ewan, may pagka-siga or pagka-bully ang aura ko nun tapos galing pa ko sa notorious section nung freshman year. Pero sya talaga mabait tapos di madamot.
3) Buti na lang at di ko pinakinggan ang sabi sabi ng mga tao na mag-accounting ako sa college, at nag EL ako at masaya ako sa ginagawa ko. Gusto ko ng numbers pero for some reason, may munting tinig na nagsasabing EL ang kunin kong course. At walang pagsisisi. Siguro mas malaki ang sweldo ko ngayon , siguro hindi. Pero un nga, kung hindi ako nag-EL di ko makikilala ang 3 college superfriends ko. At di ako makakarating sa Spain, Mexico, Chile ng libre! EL I love you!
4) Buti na lang kinalimutan ko ang notion na delikado makipagkita sa complete strangers na nakakausap sa internet, at nakilala ko si L at pinakilala nya ko kay DJ at tuloy tuloy na ang grupo namin. Five years hence ang dami na namin. Fan ako ng small groups pero I like our group now kahit super laki. Mas marami, mas masaya. Sa ngayon 20 na kame. Pwede na kameng isang buong kumpletong klase. O di ba? Ang saya saya!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
so im back
only to be saying goodbye soon. i dont know, i think i deserve a fresh start. new stories, without correlating anything on my past experiences. i've been on shitty but mostly enjoyable moments but i believe i need to start all over again. i remember when i got to hk, no one knew about my past relationships, no one knew that im a shy girl, no one knew that i am worth something. in five years i turned things around. i started liking other people, i became an extrovert, i got involved in plenty other useful things.
i've been reading my entry for the last 12 months and i realize that im just talking about almost the same stuff: getting drunk, jerk ex-bf, struggle being single, stressful work. seriously, do i really need to write about them? do i need to waste my time with them? i dont have to, but i still do. i've written so many entries about being pathetic and breaking away from it, and yet i still write whenever a new event comes up. no matter how i say i moved on, i really contradict myself a few weeks later.
i need a new area to rant. i need a new venue to tell my secrets. a new site which no one knows. a new site that i can talk about other people without fearing they may one day read it.
i've been reading my entry for the last 12 months and i realize that im just talking about almost the same stuff: getting drunk, jerk ex-bf, struggle being single, stressful work. seriously, do i really need to write about them? do i need to waste my time with them? i dont have to, but i still do. i've written so many entries about being pathetic and breaking away from it, and yet i still write whenever a new event comes up. no matter how i say i moved on, i really contradict myself a few weeks later.
i need a new area to rant. i need a new venue to tell my secrets. a new site which no one knows. a new site that i can talk about other people without fearing they may one day read it.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
the day came
i saw b and his gf. we were biking and j and i got lost and for some reason we bumped into them. he was looking good. the girl looked typical cute young chinese girl. i didnt feel any bitterness but i had 'that' reaction. it's the normal reaction when you see someone you used to love and you see him/her with someone new. it's not always that easy to brush aside. not that you dont want to be that girl on the other side, im just saying it's a surprise and no matter how many times you play that scene in your head, you will never be ready. m said that that's because there were things unsaid when we broke up. there's never a civil break-up. people need to tell each other why they think the other had been a jerk/bitch.
but as usual my friends got my back. they were trying hard albeit in a slightly brutal way to help me deal with it. a few times in your life everything becomes just plain shitty, and sometimes you're lucky you have true friends to help you go through it. it's almost a year since our 'renewed' friendship has strengthened and i swear i wouldnt have taken it the other way.
but as usual my friends got my back. they were trying hard albeit in a slightly brutal way to help me deal with it. a few times in your life everything becomes just plain shitty, and sometimes you're lucky you have true friends to help you go through it. it's almost a year since our 'renewed' friendship has strengthened and i swear i wouldnt have taken it the other way.