only to be saying goodbye soon. i dont know, i think i deserve a fresh start. new stories, without correlating anything on my past experiences. i've been on shitty but mostly enjoyable moments but i believe i need to start all over again. i remember when i got to hk, no one knew about my past relationships, no one knew that im a shy girl, no one knew that i am worth something. in five years i turned things around. i started liking other people, i became an extrovert, i got involved in plenty other useful things.
i've been reading my entry for the last 12 months and i realize that im just talking about almost the same stuff: getting drunk, jerk ex-bf, struggle being single, stressful work. seriously, do i really need to write about them? do i need to waste my time with them? i dont have to, but i still do. i've written so many entries about being pathetic and breaking away from it, and yet i still write whenever a new event comes up. no matter how i say i moved on, i really contradict myself a few weeks later.
i need a new area to rant. i need a new venue to tell my secrets. a new site which no one knows. a new site that i can talk about other people without fearing they may one day read it.
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