BS 77-86

im not religious. i dont know, but during primary school i was consistently awarded the 'best in christian living'. i suspect that they only give it to me because i was at the top of the class but it's a tradition to let the students who made it to honor roll an extra award. i was not good in arts, music, sports, so voila, the questionable award. i swear i dont remember exhibiting any role model character in a religious kind of way. then i was put to an all girls catholic school in secondary year. but for some reason i did not enjoy it. i do not get why we had to pray before and after each class plus a morning praise then an angelus, and we still have a one and a half hour religion subject! then we are required to do some church participation on weekends. gaaahhh!!

i believe in a supreme being. you can call him/her/it anyway you like but i call him papa jesus. what i do not like is the catholic teaching. i think it borders on crazy and ridiculous. i believe in doing good and not hurting other people. i dont really worry about what will happen to me after death. a lot of catholic people are so preoccupied with what happens after that they tend to repress themselves on their living days. this is what i think: when i do good, im happy. so you see, if there is such a thing as heaven, i'd go there because of my good deeds as per catholic teaching. if there isnt such a thing and we just return to the ground then that's fine. at least i lived my life happily. i go for what i want. i dont hurt other people intentionally. i lived without any grudge, so if there's no heaven with beautiful people and you dont age and get fat, then that' fine. i had my share of heaven a few times in my life.

and what's up with masses? i only like the singing part. but other than that, i'd prefer to do my praises and pleas personally. it must be the sense of belongingness in a community that they're after... but isnt faith personal? i dont know... i pray when i need something. i pray more when im thankful. on my own.

anyway, you'd think it would be hypocritical to say this... i like taking photos of churches though. i dont like the statues.. but i like to see the human extravagance to demonstrate to pay tribute to his/her faith. you see the most luxurious things inside churches. perhaps it give them the sense of pride. for me, they're more like museums. only you can take pictures as much as you want. :)

last christmas e and i did photowalk around pampanga churches. and mind you, they are from different provinces so you have to give us credit for our effort. i've always wanted to do it but e got her car when i started working so we never really found the time. our province is known for its grand churches. we went to 7 churches that day. here you go: