U.P.

i haven't been to my favourite university in ages! the last time i was there was during lantern parade in 2004 and it was a very bad experience. nothing to do with UP as a school but from that moment, i felt a little detached from the university. but when i went there last month, i felt the nostalgia of it all. all the craziness from the dugyutin days... now we're all back almost 5 years after graduation, with our respective careers... and we're all excited to see each other. it was really good seeing them again! i was really looking forward to seeing the kids i sort of grew up with.

with some of them with oble at the back:




hehe.. that's don. he's a friend/former suitor who is still in love with me after all these years.. pinagbigyan ko na.. tignan mo naman ang kilig sa mukha nya. haha!! joke lang. actually baligtad ung case. haha!



since this is my blog and i consider it as an online journal.. i'll tell you a story. r AND r were there! together! i know i said that i moved on and im really happy with b.. but i haven't seen r the ex since i moved to hk. and im very fine with that arrangement. i think it's for the best that we don't meet at all. ever. we were all shocked that r the friend said that 'they' are on their way. i know i don't own the circumstances but we thought that r gets that she should not bring r. it was sort of an invitation initiated by me. that's why i didn't put it in the e-group. only selected people. that's what we all think. the three of us haven't been in the same event since the break up more than 4 years ago. when i was still in manila, they would take turns inviting them, and me in order to avoid snubbing or dead air moments.

it's not that i am still in love with r. it's just the awkwardness of the situation. i know im improving my PR skills and im the most pretentious person i know, but i somehow didn't prepare myself for the moment and it was quite a surprise. i was really caught off guard. i couldn't even look at r the ex straight in the eyes.

so many things are running through my head. i was like: ok blsm. say hi perhaps? i did say hi. so what now? well, why should i make the effort? all this time, i should not be the one reaching out. or maybe they want to be friends? hmmm... i don't buy it. we never were. we were fling mates that got into something deeper. so when we ended, everything ended. what's there to get back? or r the ex wants to see the other friends, too? can't they just schedule another time? perhaps another chance without me? and how come r the ex is quiet all these time if catching up with others is the sole purpose? or maybe they're just testing the water, and gauging if things are ok and they take if from there? or they just want to see how fat i've become? or maybe they just want to assure that r the friend goes home safe? likely. so many dramas! all in my head! ha!

ending? we (i and r the ex) never talked the whole night. not one single word. r the friend and i are super close though. weird. oh wells, b&b are happy. r&r are happy. no matter the drama... at the end of the day, what matters is the person that your heart beats for. pagbigyan na... may hangover pa ng valentine's e.

oh! oh! derek ramsey was there, too! so many celebrity sightings!