marriage

i planned my dream wedding a long time ago. i've seen plenty of weddings in my life but i feel sorry for the couples because one way or another it was ruined by some shitty factors.

i don't know.. but my business trip/hiatus in china got me thinking of my plans. with my situation with b now and without practicing any religion, my wedding dream faded away.

but come to think of it, why deprive myself of the event that i've planned since childhood just because the intended groom is not capable of doing so?

i want all the drama, trivialities, excitement on a wedding. i want it to be as perfect as possible. my family never failed to give me a debut or graduation party, but i never liked any of those. i didn't know half of the guests and i didn't even like the food, and the weather was not always pleasant. we had to make do with our small house, and i was always wearing casual dress.

i want it to be as conservative as possible. i want to hold it in a beach, with a sunset background. ill invite in the ceremony only my close friends. those people whom i think will listen to the sermon. i want all of us to go home and reflect on the life ahead. my flower girls and ring bearers should at least be teenagers. no kids allowed. i dont want any kid running around and any parent chasing after them. ill invite all the ppc-hk peeps to come over and shoot all they want. but during the mass, i want them seated too. only one or two photographers are allowed to shoot. i want it as solemn as possible. less people moving, the better. i know it's beach setting but i want the people to be in dresses and well made-up. they can be barefoot but at least i know that they still took some time to put on their make-up and availed the best dress available. they shared that moment with me, so they should also be part of the magic of it all.

there should be a live band. we'll sing to our heart's content. i'll choose the songs that they'll play. and the food! aaaahhhh... don't get me started on the menu.hehe..


i want it to be the best day of my life.

haayyy... forgive the cheesiness. it's the old age you know. haha!