bff

it's my bff's birthday today. i haven't greeted her yet but ill call her tomorrow. it's quite late now and she may be exhausted with her family reunions and all.

we've been close close friends for ten years now. she was one of the few people who talked to me genuinely when i was the only one transferred to the first section during our high school sophomore year from the most notorious section our school has ever had. she's one of the most lovable persons i know that's why i didn't get too surprised if a lot of people fell for her. i just wished i could protect her from those bastards who hurt her. we both have strong personalities, and sometimes people tend to overlook that and ignore our feelings. we cry. we get disappointed. we feel empty. we get hurt.

we only had two real fights - one was during our hs senior year because of that crazy bitch whose name isn't worth mentioning. the other one was more of a falling out due to a possessive past relationship, who ironically is her friend now. haha!

i could not imagine an easy life without her around. who would calm my nerves during my hypochondriac moments? who would speak ill of my ex's who know nothing but become possessive and/or become dependent then later on blame me for being controlling (as in what i want to hear that time and not necessarily her thoughts)? who would pimp me through my crushees? oh i still cant forget what she did during my 16th birthday!!! waaaahhh!!!

bottomline is, i am thankful that i got her for a bestfriend. papa jesus is good to me afterall. with all the shemexes all these years, i got by with her love and support. i hope that even if i am physically absent most of time, she can feel that im proud on how she has become and that i always wish her happiness and peace of mind.

once in a while i imagine what my life would be like ten, twenty years from now. i've been doing it since i was a teenager. there were realistic and exaggerated fantasies. i may have a mansion in one, or become married to a prince on the other, or become a fisherman's wife on the next one. my romantic attachments or material aspirations may change, but she's always there, together with our trusted hs friends. a constant in my life, whoever i've become. im pretty damn sure that we'll grow old as cool senior citizens bragging to our grand children how we overcame everything watching each other's back.

happy birthday emmy!