and so we met

i lost my keys yesterday. just when i was about to hold a housewarming party for five people at my tiny flat, last night... i realized that i lost all my keys! darn! good thing i got my friends and they adopted me for a night. awwww... i got super sweet friends.

anyway, the only solution that i got is b. he got duplicates and i know it's not the best time. i was desperate so i had to call him. he was practically ignoring my calls and he would prefer that we text instead. it was a few exchange of texts and he confirmed that he could meet me next day. i was a bit paranoid last night because i did not know if he's meeting me or not. i got a text in the morning saying he could me in the afternoon, which i am literally thankful for.

so we saw each other... after almost two months. he cut his hair. he got that gigantic bike.

what did i feel? i have to admit that there's that one second jump in my heart the moment i first saw him. i have to admit that i wanted to hug him. like what they see in movies... they hug one last time to check if they still love each other.

but you know what, i dont think i still need that. it's gone. i dont love him anymore. it's amazing how you can un-love a person in a very short time. i just need to see him and it got me thinking, hey i am so glad we're no longer together. and im pretty sure you agree with me 100%. it's like you dont know this person anymore and you just laugh all the times that you were trying to get over it.

we talked for 30 seconds. and he turned back to leave. i said thank you (for meeting me and giving me my keys). i turned back and returned home.

im vindicated and it feels so good.

and the naming begins...

i just realized that this bike is my very first purchase that had something to do with transportation.

when i was young i thought bikes are just for rich kids. we were poor and bikes were considered a luxury.

yeeeeyyy... next time coche na!

must name the bike. must name the bike. what name?

aaahhhh this is like having a baby!

ok i made up my mind: RAIN.

i got it when it was raining really hard. this is the point in my my life where blessings and misfortunes just seem to rain down on me. and i somewhat love the rain on lazy days.

RAIN. i like!

i love love my company

i get to speak spanish all the time.

i get along well with my team mates. bosses are cool.

i dont work on saturdays. i have more annual leaves.

and now... tantananan... commission! yeah baby! woohoo! it's not much but it's good that i get that little extra. wooppeee!

i havent gotten it yet but i spent it already! i am now a proud owner of a venzo bike! woohoo! biking on weekends (without having to rent nasty bikes) here we go!

the hyde party

how can you hyde from a bar launch party? how can you hyde? get it? no?! oh dear, you're slow. boo! :p

maia got a real full time job now and it's the bomb! it's a members club lounge/bar and it was really a full house!

free booze. free canapes. how can you hyde? still not getting it? boo!

anyway, this is the first time that i partied really hard with the right crowd in a very long time. i danced the night away in hip hop and r&b songs! woot woot! i was so drunk i was dancing with a fat chinese guy and a crazy chinese teenage girl and a few more random strangers.. plus the pinoy gang! woot woot! love love! i couldn't remember the last time i danced like that. i became timid all of a sudden and i lost my groove. but last thursday was d-i-f-f-e-r-e-n-t!

and as a bonus, we were with cathy yang! she's now working in thomson hk. i didnt know her and i had to google her the next day. i was told that she was quite famous in the phils as a newscaster.

getting back in the scene.gradually. weeeee!!!!

promise last na to

it may not reach the recipient at all but it's good to let it all out now.

my dear b,

after all the shemexes, i cant affort to be mad at you. im not trying to gain sympathy or trying to be righteous... but as you can see im really blaming me. it's about my expectations, and about my hurrying to take it to another level. i know it's not healthy for me but i think i loved you that much to spare you the blame.

believe me... you're one of the most beautiful things that ever happened to me. i never regret it. i would not say i'd do it all over again but im just glad it happened.

i would miss our camping adventures, our singing with your guitar, our good photography team up, the movies that we download, the pinoy food trips on weekends.. too bad ngayong nahuhumaling ako sa biking ngayon pa tayo naghiwalay.. sana kasama ka din sa biking sessions namin every saturday. i would love to hear about your new recording projects and i would like to tell you on what keeps me busy these days.

i am not being bitter about love or about our relationship for that matter. i am not even blaming destiny if there is such a thing. it just had to end. i will keep searching for my 'one' with hopes of it being the last. im not rushing as i really think it's the best time to love myself for a while. i have loved you too much that i still need to savor this overflowing feeling before transferring it to someone else. i hope you're enjoying your life and freedom. of all the people i should be the one to confirm that you deserve it. you've been tasked with adult responsibilities at a very young age so if you are having a good time now, then go for it.

this stage is not going to be easy to go through if it had not been for my friends in hk. it's not the lean on me cry on my shoulders type but they have accepted me with loving arms and kept me entertained with weekend activities even though i have technically abandoned them for a long time. it's really a door closing-window opening occurrence and if i were to look back ten years from now i would say i got by one of my biggest heartbreaks with help from my pinoy friends. no bs. no cheesy shemexes.

this no contact rule is getting easier to manage as the days go by. ill be better and i hope by next year we can be good friends again.



b.

im now having a bad fever

could this be related to the accident? my wounds look really yucky.

or to the all night partying?

i hope i get better tomorrow. or my mission is going to fail!

accident. then the pay-off

i fell off a bike today. i got two big bruises (elbow and knee) and damn they really hurt!!! i fell of a bike and slid a few inches on the street! fuuuuck!

to redeem myself from myself... i still went to the band sandwich's gig... guess what?!? i get to make beso with raymund marasigan!!! as in! hahahahaha! we were talking and when it's time to say goodbye he initiated with the beso! ha!

now time to heal the wounds. ano ba yan... healing heart na nga, sasamahan pa ng elbow and knee!